This is a hard post to write. It’s a post that among all the happiness and good news that usually abound in my little corner of the internet, cuts straight through to the core of it all and brings me to my knees.
The other week, on the train back from Paris, an email from one of my grooms popped up and I smiled as I thought it was such a happy coincidence Marc getting in touch with me just then, what with me being on my way back from France, his home country. My smile died quickly as I started reading the words that followed.
I am saddened beyond words to say that my wonderful wife Carolyn, love of my life, generous and tender hearted mother of our little baby Camille, passed away this Wednesday. No one can start to understand how her time could have come so early and tragically, her being so young, fit and so full of love to give to everyone around her, full of life, exciting projects and fondness for Camille, our little family being at the peak of happiness.
She had a cardiac arrest during her sleep last Sunday morning, with no sign of warning. She was reanimated and kept in coma in the Hospital in Poitiers, France, leaving the earthly life 5 days later to remain in us all, the hearts that she touched, in our baby daughter’s beautiful eyes, and not forgetting the people saved by the organs she donated.
Live every day intensely, fill every day will love.
Even now these words cause my chest to tighten and a huge wave of sadness to wash over me, and it is impossible – and too painful – to even try to comprehend what Marc is going through right now.
Carolyn & Marc’s wedding was a true celebration of the deep love between them, and I don’t think anyone who got to spend time with Carolyn will ever forget what a sweet, vivacious spirit she had, and how brightly she shined. I feel honoured that she touched my life, and she will forever profoundly remind me of what it is that is important. To live now. To love now. To hold each other now. We don’t know what is around the corner.
Sadly I can’t be present today as Carolyn is being laid to rest, but I couldn’t not say goodbye. So here it is, my farewell to Carolyn, in the only way I know how – by remembering her beauty through images.
If you feel moved to, please feel free to donate in Carolyn’s memory to Cardiac Risk in the Young.